When faced with trauma, how would you react?
Would you survive, succumb, or lose yourself to your own meaning of justice?
Ann was only seventeen when she died. She tried to be a dutiful daughter, to pray, to repent. But it wasn’t enough. Her mother, Diane, didn’t mean to kill her but when she found Ann consorting with devils, she had no choice. She believed the angels—that in the end, the water would save them both.
But every choice holds weight.
One death, and Arthur is thrown back into the work he wanted to leave. One death, and Richard must face the reality of his choices. One death, and Maddie and Marie are confronted with the hardest parts of love.
If only good intentions were enough to keep them from the carnage of their own decisions . . .
When and where do you prefer to write?
I’ve found that I prefer writing in the afternoon or evening wherever is comfortable. I also realized writing this book that I prefer to write when I’m alone… which was hard during the pandemic. I ended up writing in the middle of the night, sitting in my bed or at my desk, once my family went to sleep around 9 or 10pm and writing till about 7am when they woke.
Do you need peace and quiet when you are writing?
It depends. When I’m writing something new, either in the first draft or a revision, I enjoy listening to music that reminds me of the scene or emotion I’m trying to write. When I’m editing and focused more on sentence structure and flow, I find I need quiet. As silly as it sounds, I enjoy listening to the rhythm and music within the words.
What is your favourite and least favourite genre?
Hmm, I have to say I don’t really dislike any certain genre. Though I do find I don’t enjoy super unrealistic and happy storylines. Usually, I’ve found this in romance… but not always. I like when the story has a bit of a bite… or reality, even when its fiction. I need the story to have a sense of truth to it for me to enjoy it overall.
Now my favourite genre has to be horror or anything dark and creepy. I find these stories balance out a little better for me. Nothing is overly sweet or happy and there is a better depiction of humanity within it, at least to me.
Say someone asks if they can use your name in a book. Would you rather be the ‘good one’ or the ‘bad one’?
Oh, I love this question! I’d have to say I’d love to be the ‘bad one’ if done right these characters usually have a richer backstory to them. If I could choose specifically, I’d love to be an anti-hero. Someone working to be good and do good as they try to overcome their own demons, like Jessica Jones or Harley Quinn.
Where can I find you when you are reading?
Honestly pretty much anywhere! I usually have a book with me to pull out during the quiet moments wherever I am. Though at home you’ll usually find me reading in bed. I love to be comfy when I read.
Where can I find you when you are not writing/reading?
Probably playing a video game or once the pandemic calms a little more, probably out at a movie theatre enjoying the newest film. I’m a huge introvert so I enjoy finding places to go solo, like perusing a new bookstore or walking around the downtown area of whatever city I happen to be in.
What goes through your mind when you hold your new book in your hands for the first time?
I haven’t been able to hold it yet but hopefully within the next few weeks. Though I can say it’s already hit me a few times… that I actually created a whole book. I’ll admit it’s absolutely mind blowing and a bit nerve wracking at the same time. I mean I created this book, which I’ll admit is quite different from a lot of mainstream stories, and I hope someone sees it, takes a chance on it, and falls in love with it as much as I did.
How do you come up with a title for your book?
Well at first it came with how I created it. I was in an advanced fiction writing class and I had to draw to slips of paper from two jars. One was an animal, and one was a colour and whatever I got… I had to create a story from it. I pulled blue and bird from the jars so for most of the 10 years I took to write it, it was called Bluebird.
When I finally finished the first full draft during the pandemic, I found lines from Emily Dickinson’s poem (hope is a thing with feathers) and Charles Bukowski’s poem (Bluebird) running through my head alongside a song called Bluebird by Miranda Lambert (I was playing it on repeat haha). It made me think of the different ways we each hold onto or crush hope, how we can also do the same thing to ourselves and what we wish for.
These all helped tug at the meaning of the book… at least for me. How even though a lot of darkness is woven throughout there was also hope, even if the characters didn’t see it. There was something they were each reaching for, and their paths were their own to make, good or bad. That’s when a child’s rhyme (bluebird, bluebird through my window) started to join the overall chorus and the whole title clicked into focus.
How do you pick a cover for your book?
That took so long! I honestly had no clue for the longest time. Then it kind of just came into focus for me one day and I liked the idea of keeping it simple with blue feathers, blood droplets, and an off white background. I was lucky to find Franziska Stern who turned those three things into the cover you see today. I fell in love with what she had made as soon as I saw it.
What is the title of the next book on your to read pile?
Oh goodness this isn’t going to be very exciting haha. I have a ton of historical nonfiction in my TBR at the moment. I’m starting the research for my next book which is going to be a queer historical fiction. I’m also throwing in books that were popular from the time periods I’m writing my story in like On The Road by Jack Kerouac, The Sirens Of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut, Hangsaman by Shirly Jackson and many others.
Note from me – Thank you for the wonderful questions, it was lovely answering them
Thank you, H. Noah and R&R Book Tours
About the Author
They’ve been a massage therapist, social worker, poet, teacher, and more. Picking up a B.A. in Criminology and an M.S. in I-O Psychology. They’ve also lived in Alaska, Maine and many places in-between. They are currently still trying to find a forever place as they travel the US.