As soon as we sat on the ride I knew something was wrong. I couldn’t relax. I couldn’t hear the theme park music, the giggles of my two other children. I’d left my baby in someone else’s care. And I knew I’d made a mistake…
With her two beautiful children and newborn baby Ella, Lily’s life is full of love and laughter. She gave up her job to be a stay-at-home mother, and though she sometimes envies the freedom of best friend Hannah, Lily wouldn’t trade it for anything.
But Lily’s world implodes when Hannah disappears with Ella one day, and Lily fears from the text message she receives that Hannah doesn’t intend to come back:
You don’t deserve her.
It’s true that Lily has been keeping secrets about her marriage from Hannah, ones she thought only she and her husband knew. Suddenly Lily realises that there are things she doesn’t know about Hannah too – and that by keeping her husband’s secrets, she might pay the ultimate sacrifice.
Isn’t it wonderful to have someone you are so close to that it feels like they are family? You can share everything with them: the good things and the bad ones, the happy and the sad ones. They will always be there for you, like you will be for them. No matter what…
This sounds so good you would like it to happen in real life too, but unfortunately it’s not always like that. You keep in touch, you see each other often, but there is not only just school to worry about anymore. What you call venting might be seen as complaining by the other party. You drift apart a little because you made a promise. They start putting two and two together and come up with five, the already rather fragile relationship might be on the verge to breaking beyond repair on the worst possible moment …
When you are struggling to keep all the balls in the air, you might be envious of someone with a less hectic life. You might long for some peace and quiet, but honestly would you ever really want to trade places? Of course not, but some might see it as being ungrateful for everything you have got. They feel you don’t deserve it and take the matter in their own hands…
A lot of heartbreak in this very emotional story but also a lot of very beautiful moments that kept the tears flowing. The book kept me up till 2.30 because I wanted to finish it. I could not put it away and leave the rest for the next day. Once you are in the flow, you just have to go with it. 5 stars
Thank you, Sam Vickery and Bookouture
About the author
Sam Vickery is an English author who loves gritty, emotional stories that can make you sob. As a child, she was forever getting in trouble for being caught with her nose in a book, and these days are no different. She lives on the south coast of England with her husband, two children and a cat that thinks it’s a dog.